ヘビロテ 🎧 apr ’24

(22/04/24, ??:?? WIB)

Slightly sick in bed but I feel so restless. There’s still eight days left but I’d like to say this now: April has been as gloomy as it’s been mundane, but also like a Rainbow Paddle Pop! I’d like to lick every bit of it (ew?) and have more and more of it until I get nauseous and throw up. So colorful. So overwhelming. I kinda want more. Sickening, if you will! But there’s something missing.

It’s been eventful but at the same time not enough. Learned new things, rediscovered old things, but (apparently, as I had just recently realized) I’m still stuck in a cycle so the progress gets cancelled out. I only get older each day.

Not sure if my top tracks this month perfectly encapsulates all of that—I’m always so moody and the stuff I listen to varies. MVP is the entire Sexy by Coco & Clair Clair. I can’t stop listening to it 😣 In fact, I had an eight-hour flight this month and I only listened to Sexy throughout! Silly, DIY bedroom pop music saves me every time. And can we talk about “Lamb”, because that’s pretty much the sound of my heart breaking—all bossed up and ready to fight but I still think about you all the time 😔🔫

The rest is BAU. Except for That One Song (you’ll know which one). It’s good 🤷🏻‍♀️

— S. N.