I love Ryan Ross! The first Virgo I’ve ever adored! I bookmarked the archive of his LJ entries and wrote them down (by hand lol) in my journal ☺️ ‘Fever’ changed everythinggg in my life, my brain, the way I view language and writing and storytelling and music entirely. My oddness, my pretense. I can’t even see myself that well but from that record I understood what a powerful, fully-realized concept/identity is (and maybe that’s why I dig it!). It’s a big, big world we live in, and I’ve lived for 28 years now (big alhamdulillah moment). Thank you!!
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(??/??/19, ??:?? WIB)
Feeding myself sad, melancholic stuff on purpose. Annihilation?
Some of my favorites:
- “I’m the ghost in the bed. You can touch because I can’t rest. And the lights are always off so I can mold you in the dark. I can shape and pretend. I just want to have a good time, just like everybody else, but I don’t want to fall apart.” (24/06/2006)
- “I want to believe in the faith that grows but I’m having a pretty hard time.” (04/04/2006)
- “You’ve got to hope there’s someone for you, as strange as you are. Who can cope with the things you do, without trying [too] hard. ‘Cause you bend the truth, ’til it’s suiting you. These things you’re wrapping all around you, you’ll never know what they will amount to. ‘Cause life is just going on without you. It’s the end of the things you know… Here we go.” (23/05/2005)
- “I’ve paged books in dusted cries for attention. Sweetheart break my spine I’ll spill my insides and hope my blood will stain and soak in more than I did. Laid to waste but I’m still ‘your favorite’. Death.” (??/??/????)
— S. N.
breaking my spine 