(24/04/24, ??:?? WIB)
Though I made this list in 2016, when I felt like I was at beyond rock bottom, and though my opinion on some of the points have changed, I still do read it from time to time. I think the last time I opened it with a purpose was in 2022.
I forgot how and why I ended up with this list. And yes, I do find it kinda corny at first. But as time passes I started seeing it differently—it’s cute, it’s endearing, and it’s quite helpful. Though I have to admit that one time, a few years ago when I was relapsing, I read it again and ugly-cried because of how cheesy the whole idea was. How is this supposed to save me? I started crying and laughing at the same time. Now I’m just glad I still get to read it for the nth time, writing about it, sharing it.
It certainly is a good time to share. Earlier today I thought a lot about my friends, how nice they are and how nice they have been to me. If you’re reading this, I owe you so much.
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(20/02/2016, ??:?? AEST)
Things That Make Me Happy (and Possibly Make My Life Worth Living)
- Mom ♡
- Kakak
- ████ & Caca
- Art (including painting)
- Best Friends:
- ███
- ███
- ███
- ███
- ███
- ███
- Sceneries
- Flowers
- Field of flowers
- Claude Monet’s paintings
- Gustav Klimt’s paintings
- Pak Yohannes
- Oma
- Christmas @ Oma’s House
- Buka puasa sama mama
- First cigarette in the morning
- Stickers
- Putting stickers on my stuff
- Especially on my lighter
- Classic novels
- TV shows
- Illegal downloads
- Spotify
- Free WiFi
- First shower after a hot day
- First shower after being sweaty af
- Ballet & Musicals
- Watching movies alone
- Watching movies w/ ███
- ███
- Nyender ke pundaknya ███
- Pegang tangannya ███
- Being needed by someone
- When my phone connects to the bluetooth connection of ███’s car
- Hugging ███
- Hugging my mom
- Hugging (suffocating) a puppy
- Puppies & Dogs
- Sea creatures
- Sharks
- Coral reefs
- The ocean
- Water
- Smell of sand
- The sun ☼
- Autumn/Fall
- Jetskiing
- Being flexible (physically & time-wise)
- Feeling smart
- Making memories
- Collecting memories
- Instant photos & photobooths
- “Stacy”
- Vodka shots
- Dancing while I’m tipsy
- Jake Gyllenhaal’s eyes
- Stupid insta/twitter accounts
- Emojis
- Stalking people
- Others’ lives
- Writing
- Receiving Letters
- Lippo Mall Kemang Village
- Stretching my legs
- My eyelashes
- Black nail polish
- Mini skirts
- Anklets
- Changing hairstyle
- Scissors
- Burning stuff
- Theme parks
- Long car rides
- Going somewhere new
- ███ (same as #29)
- Being part of something
- Kill Bill Volume 1 & 2
- Horror movies
- Blood
- Slasher movies
- Watching dumb reality shows
- Cartoon shows
- Romanticizing things
- Swearing
- Feeling special
- Feeling as if I have a special connection with Allah SWT
- Vintage posters
- Especially pin-up girls
- And Virginia Slim ads
- Indie models
- When I got my braces off
- Being studious
- Cute pyjamas
- Cute underwear
- Photoshop
- Panic! at the Disco
- Lana Del Rey
- Going to concerts
- Going to parties
- Dressing up for an event
- Curling my eyelashes
- Eyeliner on my tear-line
- Black lipstick
- Rosy cheeks
- Being ███
- Washing dishes
- Music before bedtime
- B̶e̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶a̶l̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶(̶s̶o̶m̶e̶t̶i̶m̶e̶s̶)̶ NOT feeling lonely
- Talking to ███
- Duffy
- Night sky
- X-Men movies
- Museums
- Art Galleries
- Feeling like a nice person
- Learning new stuff
- Feeling wanted
- When people say/think I’m pretty
- Lip products
- Mascara
- Pampered
- Salons & Spas
- Clubbing
- Feeling like I should not care
- Cropped tops
- Cute dresses
- Skull Prints
- High-waisted jeans
- High-waisted skirts
- Fast food
- Pasta
- Pancakes
- When people care
- Having ███ by my side
- Potato, broccoli, cheese
- Instant noodles
- Hearing good things about me
- Birthdays
- MY birthdays
- Getting attention
- Not arguing w/ mom
- TV w/ mom
- Being useful
- Feeling alright
- Being organized
- F.R.I.E.N.D.S
- New people
- Socializing
- Talking to people
- Being sassy
- Throwing shades @ people
- Girl groups
- Kpop dance choreos
- HTML codes
- My laptop
— S. N.
breaking my spine 